Doubt = Good?

I would like this blog to be an honest representation of who I am, what I am doing, what God is doing, and what in the crazy world I think is happening next. With that kind of honesty you will probably never know what you are going to get when you open up my blog….but isn’t that part of the fun?!

I can tell you that I will try and be vulnerable and not hold back to what I believe God wants me to share. That being said….

Since my last post, the train has officially left the station. It can see the station, as a tiny dot slowly getting smaller and smaller, but I know that this train is heading onward in the right direction. How do I know, you may ask. My answer is that I can see already that my God is faithful in this journey.

I am still in the midst of prep time and gaining prayer/financial support. I will officially be sharing with my first church this Sunday! Woohoo!!! So nervous excited!! <<I will not be scared to public speak, I will not be scared to public speak, I will not be scared to public speak…>>

I think I have questioned and doubted about once every week that 365M and going to Croatia is my next step. For me, this is

 HUGE!!! 

Even though I am a little nervous, have some doubt, I am very VERY excited! Woo!

However, because of this questioning, I feel it even more affirms for me that this is what God wants me to do right now in this chapter of my life. Every reason I have found of why I should stay in Columbus, Ohio where I am comfortable and everything is familiar, I feel God show me an even greater reason to why I should go. God uses everything for the good of God’s glory – including my doubts and questioning.

I am AMAZED by God! I have been connecting with churches, pastors, missionaries, old friends, new friends, and family over 365M and going to Croatia. Through my conversations with these people (maybe you are one of them!) I can see myself grow as I describe the ministry in Zagreb, the program I am in, or how I got to where I am doing what I am doing. I am growing in confidence, in knowledge (especially through my current NTS online classes!), public speaking, and in social skills. I did not anticipate some of the challenges I have already faced or how much I have changed. I have only been in this program for six months, have not even gone to be designated place of ministry, and yet I do not feel like the same person I was. This has been all for the better.

Encouraging words have come flooding into my life this summer. I do not think I would be in this program without them and the people behind these life given words. I am greatly, more than you’ll know, appreciative and thankful.

Next steps are not always easy, but I know it is going to be more than worth it in developing into the person God wants me to be.

God’s will is not always the easiest of routes, but it is the safest and best place to be.

As I write to you, I am reminding myself of these words. How easy it is to tell of others what we need to remember ourselves.

Peace and blessings,

LMR

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